Motherhood is surely a journey. A long way to go with your new born baby. For some, it might be a hard and exhausting journey, for others, it might be a beautiful and amusing one and in most of the times it can be both.
My journey to motherhood began just like everyone else, perhaps the difference for me was that my pregnancy happened so fast, in a way nobody expected it. At first everything started when i got sick. I felt so uncomfortable doing my daily work and working out, i never thought it might be pregnancy , i waited for days and i even took my friend’s advise telling that drinking lemon juice would solve the problem, but it didn’t; my husband proposed that i do a pregnancy test. I did !! and to our surprise we saw a positive sign, it turns out i was pregnant.
It was a moment where no one of us really believed what we saw, especially me , i was so surprised that i really didn’t know what to feel , i sat back down in the balcony and burst into tears. That was something new for me and i had no idea what or how to think about it .
weeks later, my pregnancy journey has began and i was officially convinced that i’m carrying a baby. From that point , i began to feel those pregnancy sympthoms and everything seemed real. I wouldn’t say it was a bad period, because , now when i look back at it , it was a beautiful experience. Maybe at some points, i felt tired and overwhelmed, for the first months i hated food and the smell of it and for the last months i could honestly cry over anything. Besides, my back pain that was really making me so uncomfortable .
But, all this was nothing compared to the feeling i felt the first time i knew she is a a baby girl, the time i first heard her heartbeats, the time i saw her moving in my belly and also when she started kicking , i felt every kick and every move of her and every time she moved i felt so happy and blessed. I was so grateful for this blessing god gave me. I knew there was a life growing inside my belly. There was this tiny little girl who made me feel a whole different kind of feelings.
The last months were perhaps the hardest. I was getting closer to my due date , i felt a bunch of feeling ; i was anxious , scared and my mind couldn’t stop a moment from thinking of what could possibly happen. But at the same time, i was feeling exited and just wanted to go into labor so i could finally meet my beautiful baby girl. Luckily, at those moments i had two of the most amazing people who helped me and supported me from the very beginning; my beloved husband and my dear friend. I felt so blessed having them by my side ; they made my journey way more easier.
It was february, and my due date was getting closer enough. My doctor had scheduled my C-section for a Friday morning . I was so scared and the two last days i prayed a lot for me and my baby , i tried to be as positive as possible. I had a believe that God is always with me, helping me and will never let me down. For sure , i didn’t sleep that night of the surgery and i had to stop eating at mid-night . We went to the hospital early in the morning, i did a check in and everything was good . we just have to go and proceed with the surgery . That was the scariest moment of my life, i was so nervous that i couldn’t stop crying. To my luck, i’ve got one of the best doctors and the staff were so nice too, there was a beautiful women I couldn’t forget who was so nice to me and hugged me till i calmed down .
The moment they gave me an epidural anesthetic i couldn”t feel nothing at all , fifteen minutes later, my beautiful girl was born, a nurse handed her to me, !! oh my God!! This was the most beautiful moment of my life, the most beautiful feeling i have ever felt, i held her for a bit, kissed her and then they took her. She looked so beautiful that i forget everything i was going through. It really was such a wonderful and magical moment .
From this moment , i knew i was ready to be a mother. Here was the start of my motherhood journey. A journey in which i had to encounter a lot of things , a journey in which i’ve experienced the most beautiful and pure form of love.
Being a mother is really a great thing, it is a stage in which you learn a lot of things. you give a lot of care , love and attention to your kid, knowing that you are the most important person in his life, you are the thing that make him feel safe and secure. Being a mother is a lot of different things we experience from day to day. And everyday is a special day. To some extent, we come to realise that our kids are really a source of inspiration for us before we became one. they gave us the power we need to go through our journey .